Thursday, April 14, 2011

Trust in the Lord

This weekend I was spiritually attacked. In conversation, someone asked me what I would do if when in Haiti, everything went wrong...I get sick and I'm not safe. And when I come back I don't get a job and I can't find a car, ect. At the time I was shocked and didn't know what to say and started talking nonsense. I had always considered that I will get sick and things aren't going to all be fine and dandy when I am in Haiti and when I come back home so when I was forced to really think about it, it bothered me and Satan took hold of it.

I kept thinking that it's not that hard...I trust that God will take care of me. He has prepared the way for me on this trip and if it is in His will, he will take care of me. It's to the point that I don't even want to think about what may happen because it doesn't really matter. Matt 6:34, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I need to live in the present and not worry about the future. I trust God to take care of me.

For a few seconds, I doubted that I trusted too much because I hasn't really given any of those thoughts a lot of time. That was quickly snuffed out by my confidence in trusting the Lord. I believe that if it is God's will for me to go to Haiti, he will protect me, take care of me, and provide for me when I am there and when I return. This was solidified this week when I read Luke 11: 9-10, "So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

I pray that God will show me what I seek in this adventure, keep me safe, free from sickness, provide for me when I am in need, and open doors when I return home.

I know that Mark 12:30 says, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength." I want to change that a little bit...all week something else keeps popping up in my head. In my mind I keep saying, Trust in the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.

12 comments:

  1. I think your trust in Him will flow from your love for Him. And guess what? You love Jesus!:) Therefore, I believe you truly trust Him more than you may think/others may believe....and that's scary. You don't know what's going to happen. That's the point! That's faith! And still, you are stoked and are ready (like you've clearly stated), so cling to the Truth like you have been and continue to pray for strength and more trust. Praying for you, also. You are an obedient servant to the Lord, and for that He is well pleased.

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  2. This is so good hunny. I am so proud of you. I do believe the Lord is guarding your mind & He is overjoyed with your faithfulness and trust in Him. Keep pressing in, keep reading the Word, keep spending time with Him. This is but the beginning of the attacks. I am here for you and I am already in prayer for you in all of these things. Trust in Him. He will never leave you, abandon you, or forsake you. The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but you are a daughter of light, of the Most High God and the Lord takes care of His children, of His beloved. Amen? Amen!! :)

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  3. I think that it's good to ask those questions. I think more than a spiritual attack they were meant to test how strong your convictions to go really were. And it's GREAT that God has reinforced your conviction to go! I'm so proud of you! I'm so excited for you! I'm definitely praying for you!

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  4. I agree with Bri...both things are good! I think it's good to question our motives, our expectations of what God's protection will look like, and where are faith will be if our expectations are not met. Because, God's protection may not look exactly like we want it to. But I love that your response to those questions is one of deep faith and commitment to follow the Lord where He leads you, and trust that through all of it, He doesn't change. He's good, He's faithful, He loves you more than any of us every possibly could...and that is something to hold onto :) Will be praying for all of these things!!!!

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  5. Keep it up girl! Its awesome to see you stand firm in the Lord. Its moments like these that really reveal to yourself who you are and where you want to be in your relationship with the Lord.

    It almost seems to me that God is lighting a little fire under you to get you spiritually prepared and excited for your adventure in Haiti.

    I love the passage from Mark at the end. We all definitely need prayer over that in making it a reality. I know I do =)

    Thank you for sharing

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  6. mmm, please don't let it stop you. you have a unique opportunity here. remember that God does not say we have to trust Him naively or ignorantly. we don't have to not think about the scary things in order to believe in His promises. and God taking care of you might not look like you staying healthy or being able to find a job or get a car or anything like that. but He will take care of you in His own way. this weekend mike eere said, "God always surprises me in the ways he doesn't disappoint me." you will be surprised, but you will not be disappointed.

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  7. trust is a form of love! may I offer a change of perspective? instead of running from one end of the spectrum to the other and assuming we know what God will or won't do when we don't have the futuristic answers, and when we are scared (I do this too!)... instead of assuming He will protect you and keep you safe from harm and disease, I think it is very important to ask yourself one question: do you believe this is where God called you to? if so, it doesn't matter if you get sick. if so, it doesn't matter if the whole trip seems to "fail" in our small human perspective. if so, it doesn't matter if you don't have a car or an immediate residence when you get home. I am absolutely not saying that God won't or can't provide these things for you, but when we follow hard after God, we give Him everything, even the things that make us nervous and scared... all the what ifs. I'm definitely not saying that He won't bless you in so many ways before, during, and after your time there, but sometimes He allows other things to occur to grow us, or to use our lives in ways far greater than we can understand at this present moment. If someone asks you that again, rebuke Satan and rest in the knowledge that you are following where you believe He is leading you right now, and that is enough for you. Basically, let HIM be enough in this way. Only when we fully surrender our fears and anxieties-- when we cast ALL of our cares on His lap-- can He fill us with rest and peace. : ) I am learning the same lesson right now. and it is hard but really makes me think, too, about who I am living for... like am I willing to go places for Jesus only if it turns out just the way I want? or what if I love unconditionally, because this is how Jesus loved, and I am not loved back in the same capacity? but He is worth it. He is worth it every time. I am praying for you, that He will show you exactly what He wants for you. : )

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  8. I've been hearing lately about all this method of achieving "financial freedom," and it just made me realize that we are all living in the financial freedom that God gives us. Anyhow, it's so awesome how you're living it out in faith!

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  9. Lindsey!! This is the podcast I was talking about! I can't figure out how to send you the link to the video only....so here's the page. Just scroll down to the bottom, it's February 6th and it's called Chris Brown: Sexual Purity is For Prudes and Losers

    http://www.baysideonline.com/watch/page/2/

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  10. It has been such an encouragement to see how you have gone about in your decision and everything involved with Haiti. By talking and reading with you it really shows through that you are leaning on God and wanting to let him take control. If it is His will so be it, the willing servant will follow and do as is told. Thanks for being so obedient and an encouragement to us all to do the same.

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  11. I am so excited for you in this adventure of going to Haiti! I'm glad the Lord has comforted you in your choice to go. You have taken a step of obedience and He has shown you in many ways that you are to go. He will bless your obedience. He will walk with you through this whole time and be your provider. I think of Matthew 6:31-34 " Therefore do not be anxious, saying 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "

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  12. Im am praying God's continual blessing and provision over your life as you embark on this adventure. It's exciting, and scary...but I know without a doubt that it will be a life-changing experience. God is going to use you in great ways and I am so excited to see him working through you.

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