Sunday, January 30, 2011

Rushed

I am a busy individual who always takes on just enough to handle without going on over load. Therefor I am always rushing through anything trying to fit one more thing in my day. I find myself doing this with Circles already because I have been worried about the time commitment. I rush through my books barely reading the words until something really catches me off guard. Once I realize it, I have to go back and read everything over again. I do the same thing with the blogs, I start reading and after a few I realize that I need to be reading and commenting on things that touch me personally. I read them all over again to process what you are saying. I feel like I'm on cruise control. This needs to change in me.

I read all of your amazing stories on how God is so apparent in your lives and I haven't had that in a long time. I'm lacking and really struggling. I am praying this week that I can slow down and seek God and see Him.

I look forward to meeting everyone next week. I haven't been to a meeting yet because I had prior engagements for work.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

My choice of Circles

I guess I didn't really tell you how I ended up here with this blog and all of you reading it :-)  2 1/2 years ago I was struggling with my faith and by best friend asked me if I wanted to start going to church with her. She suggested RH and I had been a couple times before so we dove in. Three months later I was the Concordia Campus Life Group leader. I did this for the past 2 years while attending Concordia and hung up the towel in May when I graduated. I loved every minute of it because I was with 5 other girls who knew me and were at the same place in life. Since graduating, I felt like I was missing something. I had joined a life group but it just wasn't doing it for me. I knew I needed something else. I heard about Circles and blindly without knowing anything, applied, interviewed, and got accepted. Once accepted I found out the details and honestly this will be a challenge for me that I am very excited about. I have put God in the back seat and I know that it needs to change. I am so excited to delve into Circles with everyone and hear your stories, responses, and how God is working in all of our lives.

I know I mentioned before that after this Friday, I am done with student teaching. I am a person with a schedule that LOVES to book myself solid. This will be the first time that I have no schedule and will live day to day waiting for that call to substitute teach. I thought that I would be scared and worried with nothing to do but I feel that God is slowing me down to be a part of Circles. So what if I have no steady job and no income, live with my parents, and my car is broken with no repair date set. I have no anxiety and am at total peace because God is going to take care of me and he will provide for me when I need it.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Hi Everyone!

My name is Lindsey Kingsland. I'm a little apprehensive with all of this stuff because I have never done anything like this. I am very excited for the journey I am about to embark on with all of you!

I was born and raised in Orange. I am 22 years old and have a brother who is 2 years younger than me. My parents are happily married. My dad works for NJB and referees high school basketball. My mom is a marriage and family therapist and works for a non-profit company called Outreach Concern. My brother is a junior at UC Davis majoring in English and minoring in Psychology and Secondary Education. My parents are both Christians and my brother is an atheist. I grew up and went to school at St. John's Lutheran Church and school near my house in Orange. My parents are both tall, my dad is 6'3" and my mom is 6'2, which makes my brother tall (6'5") and me tall too. I'm 6'0 and the "short" one in the family. Naturally, I am a sports girl. Growing up, I played soccer, softball, basketball, and volleyball.

When I was 12, my dad was diagnosed with stage 3 Melanoma. The doctors told my family that he would not live more than a year. He went through several surgeries and 4 rounds of intensive chemo sessions where he stayed in the hospital for 1 week and then at home for 3 weeks. He is a cancer survivor and as good as ever. He just celebrated his 10 years cancer free, 50th birthday, and my parents 25th wedding anniversary. I think that my dad really started to believe in God because God saved him. During that time, I learned to take care of myself and my brother and have been independent from then on.

At 13, I decided that I was going to play basketball in college so that I didn't have to pay, since that was the only way I was going to go. Since then basketball has been the love of my life.

During middle school I was really involved with church but I started to drift away from God in high school.  I went to El Modena High School and played 3 sports. I played volleyball, basketball, and I threw the shot put and discus. I was Female Athlete of the Year in 2006 and signed with Fordham University on a full ride to play basketball.

Fordham was my time to think I was having fun. I was away from home and got wild. If my coach was not demeaning and made me hate everyday I was there, I probably would still be there. Leaving was the best decision of my life. When I came back, I signed with Concordia University to play basketball. That was the next best decision of my life. I loved being surrounded by other Christians who could support me. At that time, I had a boyfriend who really pushed me to think about who I was as a Christian and what I believed in and stood up for. Although it wasn't a healthy relationship, he strengthen my faith more than anyone else had since I was little. The biggest gift he gave me was the book Captivating, because it changed my life. For over a year, God provided me with 20-30 books to hand out to other women.

I graduated from Concordia this past spring as a Mathematics major (don't worry I'm normal) with emphasis in Secondary Education.  want to make a difference in public high school students. Currently I am student teaching at Canyon High School until this Friday. This is really scary for me because I have no idea what is in store for me after this Friday. I am also coaching the Fresh/Soph Girls basketball at Canyon. I am so excited at how much my girls have improved in the last few months. I only have less than 3 weeks with them too.

I know I haven't told you everything but I hope this is a great start. Please ask questions if you have any. I am really excited to meet everyone and start this journey together as friends.